A Personal Feeling..and Prayer…and Conviction

While in the Garden of Gethsemane, Jesus Prayed, “Father, if you are willing, remove this cup from me. Nevertheless, not my will, but yours, be done.”(Luke 22:42, ESV).

The other day, while in the van, my wife asked me if I was happy(in the context of our work/ministry, which really is our lifestyle). I responded that I am content and, most of the time, happy. But, often, I am unhappy. It was hard to explain to her how I felt, being in a relatively thankless ministry position, where we rarely see first-hand the fruits of our labor, however, I do see and recognize the importance of what we are doing as house parents. I have worked for short periods within ministries where the youth have been on-fire for God and wanting, willing, and yearning to learn more about Him. And, here, as a house-parent, it is difficult, knowing what I know, having the salvation that God has given me, seeing the lives and the choices of the girls that we serve. Many times, I pray for a ministry opportunity to come along where I can work with on-fire youth, but, I also relent to God’s will before mine, and if it God’s will for me to stay here for a long time, then so be it.

Thinking about all of this, I was convicted by the scripture from Luke 5:31-32, “And Jesus answered them, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick.  I have not come to call the righteous but sinnersto repentance.”(ESV). We live in a unique position to be able to influence for the Gospel youth that are, in essence, on desperate spiritual-life-support in the foster-care system. And to me, this conviction is an encouragement, no matter how difficult things get.

A while ago, I ran across a quote from C. T. Studd that reads, “Some wish to live within the sound Of Church or Chapel Bell. I want to run a rescue shop within a yard of Hell.”  Well, it seems that my prayer was answered that day I prayed this. I truly do have a rescue shop within a yard of hell, and it’s taken me quite a while to realize that. And now that I have, my perspective is changing, praise the Lord!