While in the Garden of Gethsemane, Jesus Prayed, “Father, if you are willing, remove this cup from me. Nevertheless, not my will, but yours, be done.”(Luke 22:42, ESV).
The other day, while in the van, my wife asked me if I was happy(in the context of our work/ministry, which really is our lifestyle). I responded that I am content and, most of the time, happy. But, often, I am unhappy. It was hard to explain to her how I felt, being in a relatively thankless ministry position, where we rarely see first-hand the fruits of our labor, however, I do see and recognize the importance of what we are doing as house parents. I have worked for short periods within ministries where the youth have been on-fire for God and wanting, willing, and yearning to learn more about Him. And, here, as a house-parent, it is difficult, knowing what I know, having the salvation that God has given me, seeing the lives and the choices of the girls that we serve. Many times, I pray for a ministry opportunity to come along where I can work with on-fire youth, but, I also relent to God’s will before mine, and if it God’s will for me to stay here for a long time, then so be it.
Thinking about all of this, I was convicted by the scripture from Luke 5:31-32, “And Jesus answered them, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. I have not come to call the righteous but sinnersto repentance.”(ESV). We live in a unique position to be able to influence for the Gospel youth that are, in essence, on desperate spiritual-life-support in the foster-care system. And to me, this conviction is an encouragement, no matter how difficult things get.
A while ago, I ran across a quote from C. T. Studd that reads, “Some wish to live within the sound Of Church or Chapel Bell. I want to run a rescue shop within a yard of Hell.” Well, it seems that my prayer was answered that day I prayed this. I truly do have a rescue shop within a yard of hell, and it’s taken me quite a while to realize that. And now that I have, my perspective is changing, praise the Lord!